[Judas laces their fingers, giving a squeeze.] More and more, I wonder if that is the consequence of having truly lived. Destruction and seeking to wipe your existence from the world and own mind. There are different ways to go about leading a worthwhile life, I think we've both managed two very different versions of it. It would be easy to say that if seeking pleasure ended that way for you, the better way to live is seeking purpose. But that's what I did, and it lead me to the same place.