[Dorian smiles, a fragile expression. He leans forward, but not to kiss Judas. Instead, his voice comes out delicately, so that it will only be heard by Judas's ear.] I don't like losing what's mine, Judah. And I want so much to ask you to stay with me, to let me keep you. But I understand wanting death, so I can't ask you that. I can't demand your life when we would both have given it away long ago, had we the choice.
I would say you already have that either way. The only time I want to live is with you. ...That's frightening, in some ways, but I suppose it's a good thing. So you might as well have it.
[He presses his lips together, not sure how to say the rest.]
Your clone told me I shouldn't have said I wouldn't leave you alone. And that's probably true, it isn't really a promise that can be made here. But I do intend to keep it. Even if one of us disappears, it won't be due to death, so I'll do everything I can. I'll look for you. And that should be easy in my position.
[The last of it makes him laugh, and that is a relief, saving him from the overwhelming sincerity of the conversation.] You'll look me up in Hell's version of Debrett's? I do hope it will be very flattering to my history, there is so much to cover.
[Judas shakes his head, unable to keep himself from smiling.] Heaven's version. I'm sure it'll be the longest write-up they've seen. I'll find you before you make it that far, probably. But if not, we'll go get you, and I'll stay or bring you back, whichever.
And I do. If that's what you want, of course. I'll commit to Heaven or Hell with you, it doesn't matter. But technically probably Andrew or someone would be doing the saving.
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[He presses his lips together, not sure how to say the rest.]
Your clone told me I shouldn't have said I wouldn't leave you alone. And that's probably true, it isn't really a promise that can be made here. But I do intend to keep it. Even if one of us disappears, it won't be due to death, so I'll do everything I can. I'll look for you. And that should be easy in my position.
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[It's a nice thought. He has long since been damned. It's nice to think that someone cares enough to pull him out.]
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If you want me on my knees, I'd be happy go down for you.
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--Oh come on, really?
[ARE WE REALLY DOING THIS, DORIAN.]
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[It's nice to be the teasing douchebag instead of the teased douchebag again]
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[At least the sex jokes got shut down quickly.]
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[dorian gray thy name is inconstancy]
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Glad to help you pick on me, apparently.